Midnight Thinking

       A female friend once told me that the girl was mean, selfish, and immature, but then a couple years later, a male friend told me the girl was sweet, friendly, and pure. I never really talked to her personally, so I couldn't judge what she really was, and I had no idea why friends were talking about this particular girl in front of me. Gossips really stirred up my curiosity, and I even did that analysis about this girl in my mind. And interestingly, I am even writing this on my blog. Ha!
       First, two complete different reviews of a person may come from the two different attitudes that the person displays in different conditions. Maybe my female friend saw the immature side of her, and my male friend saw the sweet side because of the way she alters her personalities. There is always something going on between two competitive girls, so who knows if my female friend and the girl hate each other; and you know there could be some sparks between a guy and a girl too, the different kind of sparks.
       Second, the girl may intend to lie about her true personality. Who knows whether she is really immature, or she is really sweet. If a person wants to hide about a fact, anything can be done to cover it up. Of course truth can't be hidden forever, but who will actually detect like a FBI agent to uncover the whole thing? The girl does not murder, and nobody can judge her to jail for anything.
       Third,  people who judge sometimes have their perceptions mixed up with their personal feelings. The girl could be somewhere between immature and pure, but because my female friend dislikes her so much that she thinks the girl is more immature than pure, and my male friend likes her so much that he thinks the girl is more like a sweet person than a mean chick. First impressions do affect what people see in others.
       Last, I think I am over-thinking about this thing. Analyzing someone I don't know at 2 AM seems wasting of time. Oh well, maybe I need some distractions from my own emotions.

My Life Train, Continued

       Woo Woo! My life train horns for the last few moments before departure. I am almost done packing for my trip. All the furnitures are gone, and I am sleeping on the floor with my stuffed animals. I was really happy yesterday hiking on Wichita Mountains in Lawton and eating the heart-melting steak at a cafe. I had a few horrible moments climbing on the rocks in the wild, but everything was worth it after I saw the buffaloes, lizards, cowpat (OMG, but yeah), etc. Nothing can beat the mother nature. 

       All these happy, joyful pieces have been put in a jar. Once in a while, whenever I feel stressed, upset, angry, I will close my eyes and open the jar and sniff the air. The park, the beetles, the trees and flowers, his smile, and my company. I drown in the wonderful past. It's a good way to take a break from reality, and I will feel living in Oklahoma again. 

       Oklahoma fever. 

Countdown: 10 Days

       Wow, I can't believe I am leaving Oklahoma in 10 days! Maybe the next time I am coming back is for vacation or something in many years.
       Many people tell me that I have been so free these days, sleeping in until noon and hanging around. This is not quite true. Having no job or school doesn't mean having no life. Anyway, these days will end soon. I will be working like a typical employee in a big company and doing the typical kind of job. Friends and family warned me that working would be tedious, but I believe I can make the working environment a little more enjoyable. No worries.
        I know I am going to miss here. Oh, the sentimental me.

What If

       If I turned ugly, would you still be madly in love with me?
       If I aged, would you still kiss me on the cheek?
       If I ran away from you, would you catch my arm on time and hold me tight?
       If I got lost, would you keep looking for me until my face reflected in your eyes again?
       If I told you I still loved you, would you tell me you missed me?
       I failed to let go of my last relationship. He is not the best of all, but he stole my heart.

-------- Please allow a drunk person being drunk

Oklahoma

     

       I never noticed the moon in Oklahoma could be so bright and the sun so breathtaking. Oklahoma is not quite a good choice of place for living to many people.

"Tornadoes are coming. Seek shelter in the interior of your home. 
Earthquakes are coming. Avoid the interior of your home. Go outside if possible. 
There's light night outside. Avoid high ground. 
There's a flash flood warning. Avoid low ground.
Hail is present. Avoid open areas. 
Parts of the state have received 5" of rain in the past three hours. 
However, a burn ban is in effect..." 

       Ah, from feeling strange to accepting the fact, to falling in love with this place, I think I am accustomed to the severe weather here. Six years, a quarter of my to date life.
       Winds continue to blow, birds continue to sing.
       Life goes on.

I Will Miss This And That

       I finally gave the final byes to my professors who I have known for almost five years, and one of them is actually retiring this coming May. How interesting it is that someone is stepping out of a business and I am going in. I am so gonna miss the things that I went through here in the past few years. The University of Oklahoma, the College of Engineering, the Department of Industrial Engineering, Class of 2012, Dean's Leadership Program, TRIO Program, International Student Leadership Program, Bizzell Library, Engineering Library, Lloyd Noble Center, etc. Oh tears. I have to come back some time again in my life. >,<

My Life Train

       Life is like a train with multiple stops on the way.
       Twenty-three years ago, I started my train to adventure, to explore, to experience, and to challenge.  Everything went well. People jumped on board, and some dropped out. I may not remember every single piece of events, but they are certainly kept in a safe corner.
       Six years ago, I decided to stop by Oklahoma. People here are very different from the ones at home, but I met a lot of friends. Soaking in an English-only environment, eating steaks and spaghetti for dinner, falling in love with foreigners, and completing education. From forming relationships to heart breaking. From feeling uncomfortable to enjoying satisfaction and achievements. Everything, everyone decorates my train with their color pencils. I occasionally jumped on others' trains to gift as well. Some people have a picture of my smile on their wall, and some have a drop of my tear. I once thought I would park my train here for the rest of my life.
        The next stop is Chengdu, China. It's another place far from home, but closer. I don't know what will happen in the future, but I will collect all my gifts and get ready for the new journey.