Saturday, May 11, 2013

May 12th



       Tomorrow is going to be a big day to me. I will be 6000 miles closer to my dream, but 24-flight-hour far from my friends in the U.S. I promised to attend the convocations for my friends, and sadly, I ate my words. I do apologize for my laziness, impatience, and emotions. I just feel like having a day off away from people and all the strong emotions of mine.
        Siji, Yaya, Ryan L., Ryan G., Newman, Ann, Ebisa, Su's mom, Uncle Peter, Dr. Shehab, Mrs. Jackson, Lisa... Thank you all for your participations in my life in the past years. I hate saying bye, but I really don't know when I am going to see you again. Hope our lives come across in the future.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Midnight Thinking

       A female friend once told me that the girl was mean, selfish, and immature, but then a couple years later, a male friend told me the girl was sweet, friendly, and pure. I never really talked to her personally, so I couldn't judge what she really was, and I had no idea why friends were talking about this particular girl in front of me. Gossips really stirred up my curiosity, and I even did that analysis about this girl in my mind. And interestingly, I am even writing this on my blog. Ha!
       First, two complete different reviews of a person may come from the two different attitudes that the person displays in different conditions. Maybe my female friend saw the immature side of her, and my male friend saw the sweet side because of the way she alters her personalities. There is always something going on between two competitive girls, so who knows if my female friend and the girl hate each other; and you know there could be some sparks between a guy and a girl too, the different kind of sparks.
       Second, the girl may intend to lie about her true personality. Who knows whether she is really immature, or she is really sweet. If a person wants to hide about a fact, anything can be done to cover it up. Of course truth can't be hidden forever, but who will actually detect like a FBI agent to uncover the whole thing? The girl does not murder, and nobody can judge her to jail for anything.
       Third,  people who judge sometimes have their perceptions mixed up with their personal feelings. The girl could be somewhere between immature and pure, but because my female friend dislikes her so much that she thinks the girl is more immature than pure, and my male friend likes her so much that he thinks the girl is more like a sweet person than a mean chick. First impressions do affect what people see in others.
       Last, I think I am over-thinking about this thing. Analyzing someone I don't know at 2 AM seems wasting of time. Oh well, maybe I need some distractions from my own emotions.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

My Life Train, Continued


       Woo Woo! My life train horns for the last few moments before departure. I am almost done packing for my trip. All the furnitures are gone, and I am sleeping on the floor with my stuffed animals. I was really happy yesterday hiking on Wichita Mountains in Lawton and eating the heart-melting steak at a cafe. I had a few horrible moments climbing on the rocks in the wild, but everything was worth it after I saw the buffaloes, lizards, cowpat (OMG, but yeah), etc. Nothing can beat the mother nature. 
       All these happy, joyful pieces have been put in a jar. Once in a while, whenever I feel stressed, upset, angry, I will close my eyes and open the jar and sniff the air. The park, the beetles, the trees and flowers, his smile, and my company. I drown in the wonderful past. It's a good way to take a break from reality, and I will feel living in Oklahoma again. 
       Oklahoma fever. 

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Countdown: 10 Days

       Wow, I can't believe I am leaving Oklahoma in 10 days! Maybe the next time I am coming back is for vacation or something in many years.
       Many people tell me that I have been so free these days, sleeping in until noon and hanging around. This is not quite true. Having no job or school doesn't mean having no life. Anyway, these days will end soon. I will be working like a typical employee in a big company and doing the typical kind of job. Friends and family warned me that working would be tedious, but I believe I can make the working environment a little more enjoyable. No worries.
        I know I am going to miss here. Oh, the sentimental me.