Dearest Friend,
So many things had happened since last month. Earlier in September, we were having fun at the lake
with Mr. B's family. Who would believe we ended up not talking to each other in
three weeks? I am writing this to let you know that you are always my dearest
friend no matter what you decide to do with me, and I hope you would understand
me. I know you are mad at me for not being considerate when it comes to love
relationships, but please try to finish reading this letter.
As you know, I
started hanging out with Ryan soon after school started. At the beginning, I
simply enjoyed the pool at his neighborhood. You were right, the way he looked at people made people believed they were the only significant one in his world,
but I wasn't interested in him. Most of the time I was the one talking,
sharing, and whining. He didn't talk much, and so I thought he didn't find my
stories interesting. We kept hanging out at the pool and his apartment almost
every other night anyway.
I didn’t find
Ryan special until the night I was upset about some words my grandpa told me
over the summer. As usual, I was sharing my story with Ryan. I told him that I
didn't know if I would remain happy without my grandpa. Maybe Ryan sensed my
emotions and started to talk about his grandparents. He said he wasn't familiar
with them because two of them died when he was young. I then confessed that the
fewer people we started to be close with, the happier and simpler our lives would
be. He agreed, and I was shocked to find out someone had such feeling/thought
like me. Since then, I started to feel Ryan and I shared many things in common.
Can you
believe how difficult to find someone feels the same way like you do? I am very
thankful to meet Ryan, get to know him and start liking him. He is someone I
have been looking for. Of course I have doubts. Maybe he is not my Mr. Right,
maybe we won't have a future, maybe he is not as amazing as I perceive, maybe
he doesn't like me as much as he claims, etc. But at this moment, I know I
really enjoy being with him. I don't want to let go.
I understand
you don't feel comfortable about my relationship with Ryan. He is your age and
was your high school friend. If we broke up or ended up hating each other, it
would be very awkward for you to pick a side. I thought a lot about what you
told me the other day. I think you were right, and so Ryan and I decided to
take a step back. Everything seems going back to normal. He and I are still on
the stage of getting to know each other, but we can’t go back to normal friends any more. We both like each other, and it takes a lot to forget the feelings
for each other, more than we can imagine.
You said I
shouldn’t be asking dramatic questions, but I just have a feeling that you don’t
want to talk to me or see me ever again. I really hope a dear friend like you
could be my close friend for the rest of my life. I cherish our friendship with
my heart.
Crystal
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