Awkward Moments

Life is full of adventures and unexpected changes. I appreciate my ups while downs are trying to make me feel miserable. When your ex is telling you to "get the fuck out of" his life or saying "you don't fucking care about me," do you think your emotions need to react physically and/or psychologically to what he says? Honestly, I wasn't paying too much attention. I did care if he was feeling okay and not doing anything silly, but it doesn't mean that I should feel miserable or terribly upset because of his curses.

Your existence seems like a torture to your ex. You guys bump into each other again at your mutual friend's party, pass by each other between classes on campus, etc. He is upset seeing you again, and he even tells you so. But what can you do? Committing suicide could be one of the solutions, or maybe moving to another city instantly although you are almost done with your bachelor degree. NO! I am not gonna do that, and neither should I. I really hope my life to be peaceful and colorful. I don't have preference when I make friends, but if people are too scary, I do escape from them.

Human Relations

After meeting up with my Capstone advisors, I got a call from Nestle Purina asking if I would like to have a phone interview with them. Are you kidding me? Of course! It's always nice that someone feels interested in your experience and yourself. And I love sharing.

Since the first time I stopped by Ryan's neighborhood, I fell in love with their pool and clubhouse. It is a peaceful place to chill and relax, and I have a great companion. Ryan was Su's high school friend. I didn't pay any attention to him when we first met, basically because he thought I was weird and I thought he was a freak. Ha ha! He now has three roommates sharing a big apartment. All of them are nice and sweet. One of them actually overused the word "whorrrrrrre" when he plays games. Laugh out loud. 

Angry Bird and I have been talking on Whatsapp since I came back to the U.S. He is sometimes mean and aggressive. Well, or he wouldn't be given a name "Angry Bird." Kidding! Smiley face. He shares with me Hongkongese culture and gives me humble advice. I like him, honestly speaking.

Dr. Moses has been telling us that we are the best group of interns for the most difficult project this semester. Well, I am trying not to think too hard about it and just take it as a compliment. 

Extra efforts are meant to be made. Fighting! 

Living My Life

I was expecting my fabulous last semester in college before school started this week, but my mind was struck and blown away by strict professors' policies and a great deal of projects. I guess my life isn't as fantasy as I want before graduation. 


Ugh, job hunting, academic achievement, and relationship, etc. 


I am glad friends are around being supportive and encouraging. Special thanks to Ping for saying, "It is always cool to have an old friend living in the U.S.," and Ebisa for advising me. Ebisa was my TA. Talking to him gives me a comfortable, positive feeling. I am like a recharged battery with all the inspirational thoughts. They are happy, and so am I. 


Aubri is my only Capstone project partner. I met her a few years ago but never really talked to her. She is a funny, brunette girl from Louisiana. You have no idea what we talked about in the past few hours about our internship and people. Wahahhahaha... 


Everything seems working out fine, and I hope it moves on the same. 

Rainy Saturday

As usual, I fell asleep when I was reading a book. I think this time it's also because of all the running and laughters I had with my friends. Su and I went to a community service this morning and drew some plate mats for children in hospitals. Overusing creativity drained my calories, and my stomach was crying out loud before we reached the restaurant for lunch. I met some of Su's friends today, and Leah was one of them. She went to England this summer. Going through her Facebook photo albums only increases my desire to travel to England some day. The rain was pouring, and it hurt when it hit your head and shoulders. Three of us ran in the rain like idiots on the way to the parking lot after eating some great food. It was quite an adventure, according to Su. That's what friends do together, acting like weirdos in public disregarding others' opinions. Teehee!

Another Day, Another Dawn

Dad finally starts reading literature after 24 years of marriage with mom. Now I feel illiterate among my families and friends. Su always recommended me books, Romance, Fantasies, and Fictions, but I never found them interesting or myself encouraged to start reading. I somehow managed to finish half of the Steve Jobs book and half of The Little Prince. See, I am always half-way done and give up. Howl's Moving Castle looks interesting and simple without hundreds of character names to memorize or bloody scenes. Hope I won't give up reading in the middle of the story again. 

Mom called last night to tell me the result of my body check a few weeks ago. A basically healthy body seems to have some defects. It's okay, I will work out more often to maintain a better health from now on. I found it funny that mom told me not to drink alcohol. I don't remember telling her anything about me being drunk. 

How did she know I had been drinking!? 

In the middle of the mother-daughter conversation, my neighbors knocked at my door. Another pair of mother and daughter, but younger. They shared some Indian food with me. So nice! Smiley face. 

I strongly believe a skunk is living underneath my apartment. She seems making herself a home down there and being very busy. I am an animal person, generally speaking, but not quite a skunk fan. And I don't like to share my apartment. >.<

Norman

Norman is a small city, empty when school is out. Jet lag messed up my appointments, my emotions and my rest. I am so glad it's gone by now. 

A guy came to me one day randomly on campus and asked me out. He acted awkward and over dressed for a normal day. I wasn't comfortable going out with a stranger out of nowhere, so I rejected him indirectly. A week later, we met again in La Baguette. I chitchatted about my thoughts on cakes and coffee, and he... confessed his feelings to me. People are blunt and absurd these days.

AWKWARD!

Siji and I had a little reunion the other day at Thai Delight. I envy her experience in New York this summer. I wish I could have gotten an internship there and have fun. After struggling with my jealousy for a while, I now think my Korea trip wasn't bad either. All the friends I met and food I ate ain't nothing! 

Laugh out loud.

People are moving back in Norman this week because of school. Things are getting back to normal. 

Another semester, another love story, and another life.

The Asian Me

I am still drowning in the memory of last month, stuck. I feel different, less Western but more Asian. My trip in Korea made me realize life could be very simple. You don't have to party to make news friends, or smoke cigarettes to fit in. In the past five years, I had changed so much that I forgot who I really was. Trying to fit in this foreign country filled with difference races and/or preferring the western lifestyle better, I stuffed my life with fanciness and tanned like a white girl. All the changes seemed reasonable and fated. I didn't regret what I changed to, but now I realize I am still the Asian me no matter where I am. My trip in Korea allowed me to hang out with more Asian people and provoked the Asian side of me which was hidden for a long time. I am Asian. I have yellow skin, brown eyes and dark hair. In my genes and blood, something is never gonna change.

Welcome Home

I arrived Norman, Oklahoma safely on Monday morning at 3 am. I wasn't pleased because I was locked out for three hours in a such early morning. And the most ridiculous reason for a lockout I had ever heard was that the whole apartment shifted because of the high temperature of the ground while the door remained the same position. I couldn't get in my apartment until my door was unstuck by a maintenance guy. Now I realized sometimes people could be too frustrated to say a dirty word. Without any sleep at night, I missed my dentist appointment the next day. The office assistant at the dentist was mad at me. Well, it was not under my control. Jet lag was way too powerful than I thought. I hung out with Su, her mom, Jang and Jackie on Tuesday. We didn't do much. They mostly made fun of my experience in Korea and Hong Kong. Laugh out loud! I still have some errands to do today and tomorrow. Peace.

China Blocks Everything!

July 30, 2012

I have been home for five days. Nothing special happened. I enjoy walking in the neighborhood after dinner with my parents. They sometimes talk about their business and sometimes joke about small things. Being a middle age Chinese man is never easy, taking care of the elders and supporting the youths. I would love to help, but the great responsibility is more than just a word. London Olympics Games began about two days ago. The only game I paid attention to was the USA vs. France Basketball. Many Thunder players were in the USA Olympics team, and that’s why I watched the whole game without missing a thing. France wasn’t bad, but USA was the best. Bling! My dad fell asleep when I watched the game. I couldn’t make a noise. Trust me, it was hard, especially when you watch your favorite basketball player doing a perfect 3 pointer. I always think of my friends in Korea when I am calm. They are like the great entertainers in my life, and our private, happy memories make me sweet. 

August 5, 2012

My flight in Guangzhou has been delayed due to some problems in the control tower. Maybe I will miss my flight in Korea to the U.S. Before my departure, I went to Hong Kong to visit my friends. My mom tagged along. I have been to Hong Kong many times, but never experienced like a Hongkongese. Francis was a great tour guide, but I once again wonder whether he lied about the food卤水. I ate something orangey, and he told me that was it. NO WAY! I saw Hung without his glasses for the first time. He looked different, small eyes. On our way from the hill to the train station, Angry bird called a couple times to talk to me. I know he misses me. He should have shown up to meet me, but he was busy. Mini Bus in Hong Kong is an attraction. They told me to take the bus at night again to get the feeling of roller coaster. I think I will pass (Yes, I am too chicken). I went back home on the same day. I also visited my grandpa before I left. He has been really sick for a month. I almost cried when he told me to take over the family company if anything happened to him or my dad. I am glad he is a lot better now. Ugh, one hour and a half delay. I am so gonna spend a night in Korea. Maybe God know I miss my friends there and let me stay for a night. >.<