The Past

      The sixteen-year-old me was certainly a drama queen. Having an 18-year-old boyfriend at the time was considered cool, and willing to die for the so-called love was called bravery. Now I see that stupid. However, I don't think it was necessarily bad, but quite an experience that I could learn from the past. 

       I have changed so much that I don't even see a shadow of the old me. I guess the most unchanged characteristic of me is love to write letters and diaries. I had hid so many letters from everybody in a secret place, and tonight I dug them out for some refreshment. I see myself wasn't looking for comfort or peace in a love relationship at the time, but fireworks that could sparkle the boring entities in my life. I would rather say I was selfishly manipulating. I am glad I have come this far changing and improving. Hehe.

       Mr. F and I are now in a stable friendship that we both appreciate each other's feelings. A good relationship does require efforts. Long distance isn't easy to run, but at least we can try. =)

A Whatever Sunday

*Cough Cough*

It is another usual Sunday with a whole bunch of tourists flushing into the city. My colleagues and I decided to stay indoor to avoid traffic and the crowd. Sadly my throat is so sore, and everything becomes so trivial and unpleasant. Sunday gives me a chance to have some "me" time. Before working full time, I had "me" time whenever I didn't feel like sociable, but now Sunday is my only chance to do something on my own. Calling friends to harass their Sunday lives, lying in bed to pretend time has stopped slipping away, and playing games like I got nothing else important to do... It's a whatever Sunday. I just want to relax. No argument, no incidence. Hopefully no sickness.

Epic Fail

"Yeah, I am being unrealistic liking you so much and chasing you like a bee. I am being crazy falling for a guy like you who is too coward to fall in love with me. Epic fail." - Zixin

If you know women, you should also know career is not the goal of their life, but love is. They need love to continue their pavement and generate energy to keep moving forward. May God assigns me a good man for life. This current one is just wrong. 

 

Short Life, Small World

       Don't be surprised when you bumped into a friend on the other side of world, because you need to believe in God's great plan. Don't be afraid to say bye, because you may see your friends again once you walk around the corner. Please do cherish your friends and the moments with them, because you never know when they will pop up in your face.

        Fidela, it was great seeing you again after a year in a different country, in a different city! *Big hugs*

         

Lost and Found

I lost a dear friend of mine. We were once close friends who shared daily experiences with each other, no matter happy or sad. We were once the Ying and the Yang, the Ping and the Pong. But everything changed since we realized there was more than friendship between us. Maybe we got a chance to start a love relationship, maybe we could have caught the moment before it ran away. We didn't. We chose to break the bond. Now I am all by myself again in the Lost and Found, and he is just another familiar stranger in the world. 

Long Time No See

Hello World,

It's been a while for me to get on here. China blocks most of the foreign websites that provoke anti-censorship. Thanks to Mr. R, I can now update here again. =) 

My life has been fine since I got back to China. My job can be overwhelming and challenging sometimes, but that's the way I like it. I found value in myself when I received my very first paycheck. Please don't make fun of me, I really love doing what I am doing now. I don't know about the future, and I don't care, because I will make my own kind of fortune. 

I have friends on the other side of world looking forward to seeing me again, and new friends that I make and work with in this new city. What else can I ask for? 

Love, 

ZixinCristo

May 12th

       Tomorrow is going to be a big day to me. I will be 6000 miles closer to my dream, but 24-flight-hour far from my friends in the U.S. I promised to attend the convocations for my friends, and sadly, I ate my words. I do apologize for my laziness, impatience, and emotions. I just feel like having a day off away from people and all the strong emotions of mine.
        Siji, Yaya, Ryan L., Ryan G., Newman, Ann, Ebisa, Su's mom, Uncle Peter, Dr. Shehab, Mrs. Jackson, Lisa... Thank you all for your participations in my life in the past years. I hate saying bye, but I really don't know when I am going to see you again. Hope our lives come across in the future.